Day 52 of North Carolina

I live in the Seattle district. The rain storms are coming in at full force. The winds are monstrous and ruthless. The rain is pouring. This fall isn't going to hold back squat. It's already showed its rage - a tornado touched down south from here in Fredrickson. I have no idea where that is, but if it's far from where I live, I'm cool.

I've had multiple nightmares over the years about natural disasters happening right outside my front door. The most frequent natural disaster is a tornado. They crash down and destroy everything in its path. Not looking forward to that becoming a reality... 

Other than the storms, today was a decent day. My period was going off the hook, though. In ENGL, I could hardly stay in class. I constantly kept going to the bathroom. But when I'd sit at my desk, I'd wriggle in my seat from discomfort. 

Men, you got it easy.

Day 51 of North Carolina

You know what bites the big ones? When people call you a best friend but they leave you hangin' to dry. 

I understand that everyone's busy dating and taking care of college and building a career, but some checking up on old friends would be nice. 

I feel like that one person whom nobody truly gives a rats ass about. I mean, obviously my family and Mason give a Hell of a damn. But I'm talking about suspected friends. Whenever I make friends, they disappear before my eyes. I try and stay in touch or try and hang out with them, yet every time I'm with them, I get a bad vibe like I'm some virus they don't want to catch but have to hang around anyway. 

Fang, if you read my blog posts, I hope you're not getting offended. Honestly, I'm just talking through my menstration. Nevertheless, I would like it if you texted me every once in a while. After all, you DID call me your best friend. Is that title still alive? If it's not, damn... I saw that coming (past experiences) 

I guess what I'm trying to say here is... I don't like being the puppy dog. I don't like following people around, waiting for them to notice me or talk to me back. Yet it's always like that. I always start the conversations. I'm tired of doing that... I would like to talk to people, but if they don't even attempt to talk to me, then why bother?

Life lesson, kids.

Alright, now let's get to the football game, huh? What... a crazy... GAME!!!! And the Seahawks actually WON!!!!!! By a FIELD goal!!!! Three points ahead from the other team. Unbelievable. The Seahawks were doing so horribly!!! The Texans defense is outstanding. Or, our offense just sucks. Anyway, that game was a mood swinger. I thought we were going to win, then lose, then win, then tie. In the end, we won. Thanks to the guy who could kick like a boss. 

I had a headache afterwards. Not only because the family was screaming their heads off, but I had the worst sleep! I hoped and prayed I would get good sleep before having to wake up at 6 AM. 

Nope.

My period exploded. I woke up at 4 AM to change my pad because my hoo-ha was flowing like a goddamn faucet. Once cleaning everything up, I hit the hay. I then woke up at 6 AM to toss and turn when I noticed Mason (who was Skyping me through the night - we like to sleep together while Skyping) was gone off of the screen. I texted him and texted him; no reply. I began to panic. Where was he? Finally, he came back and I constantly kept asking him where he went. He didn't answer until I asked it the third time. He told me he took a shower. Then he asked me what I was doing. Clearly, I wasn't in the mood for stupid questions. All throughout the night, I had horrendous sleep. Nothing solid. I said to him I was trying to sleep. He wondered if we should call it quits for Skype. I said Yes and we hung up.

However, I didn't get any rest. I stayed in bed, tried to fall asleep... 

Nope.

I got up at 8:30 to help the parents clean the house for the Seahawks game party. 

By the way, did any of you know Praying Mantises live in North Carolina? Me neither! But Mason took a photo of one: 

Day 50 of North Carolina

Saturday. 

Flippin' FINALLY!!! 

I should have finished my math homework, but that's not due until the night of Monday. 

I'll start it tomorrow after the Seahawks game.

And I need a shower, too...

Anyway!

My day was fine. Dealt with the annoying parents, played IMVU and watched YouTube. 

I also purchased a Markiplier shirt. He's doing a charity for animals. These shirts are a special edition. Not only is THAT awesome, but $15 from the $30 is donated to the animal charity. Fantastic! 

Thanks, Mark!

On a random note, does anybody chew Stride gum? I rarely do. But Stride made a cool flavor called Fearless Fruit. It's neat because of the cover art. Here! Let me share to you of this amazing art!

Day 49 of North Carolina

What a blustery day! 

Thankfully, the weather didn't hurt my confidence in taking a math quiz and completing a 715+ word essay today! Yippee! 

I know I OWNED that math quiz. If I didn't, I'll be disappointed in myself for not being totally focused on what the heck I was writing down!!! I felt awake this morning. I had an ice coffee to help me out! I should have been good? ... Right?

My essay turned out well (in my opinion) I finished it in three hours. Oh yea! Hooray for brain farts!!!

Not.

I think I had the toughest time figuring out what I wanted the title to be - something creative; something dull since it's only the first draft, etc. 

After posting my accomplishment online, I went to the chiropractor, came home, waited for mom to get back from Canada by occupying myself with my computer and now I'm here.

Ah... Week one is over with. Exciting, huh? I get my ass kicked and finally I have a bit of a break. Thanks, weekends. We all appreciate you being allowed as off days. 

Oh, and if you didn't already know, I'm pretty stoked for this year's Halloween... 

Day 48 of North Carolina

Hello, America. 

Have you noticed how American you Americans are? Totally dedicated to the American culture, proud of your American country... I have to say...

... It's somewhat getting out if hand.

I'm not trying to downgrade America here but... chicken and waffle flavored Lays???? Are you SERIOUS??? Is that what a majority of American citizens suggested to be the winning new flavor?! Or did the company make it up themselves? Next, you'll have fruit flavored chips, labeling them as a "healthy" snack. 

Want proof of this new Lays invention? Scroll down and look for yourself. 

My day was dandy. The weather, again, was moody... Like me. 

Math was boring. English was motivational. We watched an interesting video on motivation and how focused views tend to lack the quality of open-minded views. 

I might share that video tomorrow.

But tonight, feast your eyes on a new delicacy... 

Day 47 of North Carolina

Day three!

The third school day wasn't half bad. My math class is cruising through sections while my ENGL class is taking its time. I feel pressured all over again each moment I write something... Every time I take an ENGL class, I sense someone, who has amazing language mechanical skills, is reading my blog and taking note at how unprofessional I am with my writing!

I'M SORRY, IMAGINARY JUDGE!

DIDN'T YOU READ THE TITLE OF THIS BLOG? IT HAS THE WORD DIARY IN IT! THAT MEANS THESE POSTS YOU ARE JUDGING WEREN'T MEANT TO BE FORMAL!

... Though I do try to make them as interesting as possible.

Tomorrow, same stuff different day. Except, I have therapy in the afternoon... Or evening. I don't remember...

On Friday I have my first essay due. What am I going to write about? My interpretations of a poem and how they connect to this poem.

Am I prepared??

No.

But like what Markiplier says, "My body is ready."

Speaking of funny dudes, here's a heartwarming (and unfathomably humorous) YouTube video of BatDad's Vine compilation. Please, enjoy.

Day 46 of North Carolina

I'm seriously starting to hate this app... I despise repeating myself. Goddamn app keeps deleting my posts that I don't publish, yet I exit out to go on Google, search for what I want, come back, and the stupid app acted as if I didn't type anything...

Thanks technology... You're the best.

I'll repeat... Just not word-for-word.

My day was good. I'm exhausted, though. I thought I had great, solid sleep but... who knows?

More homework. I guess I'm not getting a break - whether it's the first day of school or the week of finals. Joy...

After homework, I watched VICE videos. I watched a documentary of our oceans waters being highly polluted by plastics and other products we use on a daily basis. During this series of three videos, a trio of VICE journalists joined a two-manned boat for a couple weeks journey. In total, there were four men and one chick. 

I figured either this girl would hook up with one of the guys or with all of them. No matter what, I assumed there would be some romance.

And what do you know? The blonde DID hook up with someone. Not the captain or the co-captain, but with one of her teammates. 

Okay, Jim and Pam.

The Office humor.

One part of the video had a scene where the two kissed. Nothing passionate, but sweet; like it was their first time kissing each other. I almost felt happy for them. Almost. Until I realized I haven't been kissed or touched or cuddled or caressed in a little over nine months. So, these days when I see people with somebody, having the time of their lives with their partner, I visualize myself pouring gasoline on to me and setting myself on fire. 

I hate it.

I hate the fact that my life situation is a waiting game. 

I can't have what I need. I can't have what I desire. And when things don't go my way... prepare for my wrath... 

I miss romancing... I'm kind of desperate... Not in the sense that I would cheat on Mason or leave Mason... but really, guys... I'm going crazy.

I should get some sleep...

Day 45 of North Carolina

Great first day back.

Crappy ending.

I'm not in the mood to type a long post... I was earlier, but not anymore... Relationship problems...

As I walked to the college's store this morning, I noticed a couple parking lots blocked off. Bulldozer's are tearing up trees... It was a horrible sight... One reason why I enrolled into the college I'm currently going to is because of the campus - how it has tons of foliage. It makes me feel snug. I love the outdoors.

Now they're taking away what I cherish... Civilization sickens me.

I have the same math teacher which is nice. She remembers me. Surprisingly my English teacher is very funny. That's kind of rare. Usually English teachers are on the edge of falling off their wagon. Not my English teacher!

Another cool thing, a girl who I knew from my previous math classes has the same exact schedule as I do. No worries about stranger danger!

When school was over, I walked back to my once empty parking lot to find my Enrico squished in between a row of cars. Parking is going to be tough to find since the other three parking lots are being renovated. 

I'm glad I get up so early.

I had homework. That's right. First day assignments. Thanks, college. 

I was planning on telling Mason about how fabulous my day went, but things went wrong and Mason fell asleep over the phone because I was too busy sobbing instead of talking.

Next time, I guess.

 

Day 44 of North Carolina

ARE YOU GUYS WATCHING THE SEAHAWKS GAMES?

TELL ME YOU'RE WATCHING THE SEAHAWKS GAMES!

They.

Are in.

Full.

Beast mode.

TALK about DESTROYED! The Jaguars didn't have a chance! That was more like practice than an actual game. I assumed the Seahawks would take them out. Shoot, I don't even think I've seen the Jaguars play. Are they supposedly a good team?

NOT ANYMORE!

Nah, I'll try not to be an instigator. But I'll tell you what; that game was fantastic. The score was, I believe, 45/17...? Or was it 48/17? Hell if I know. All I know is that the Seahawks demolished the Jaguars. It was almost embarrassing. Touchdowns left and right!

The family had a party at the grandparents' house. Even my aunt Dotti came over. It was really nice to see her. Her life is rough as well. I hope things ease up when Mason comes home. I know how much she loves him. :)

We cheered on our team, we ate food and talked story during the commercials. Great day.

Tomorrow I begin school. How do I feel? Pretty freakin' nervous... I haven't gone to school in... four months...? Well, it's been a while. I know I'll do fine, but in the back of my brain, it still feels like the first day of school in a new grade.

Wish me luck.

Day 43 of North Carolina

I did the Color Run today in Tacoma!!! "The happiest 5K on the planet." Haha! Way cool!

I ran the entire three miles without stopping. I only stopped for traffic and when others were walking in front of me as they got splattered with colored powder.

I felt great afterwards!!! I wasn't totally out of breath. I was actually rejuvenated!! I felt alive! I was ready to get colored!!!!

There was a concert type deal at the finish line. Loud music played, DJs threw free stuff to the crowd, and when the time came, people would open up their color packets and throw the powder at each other!! I'll need to jump on my computer to upload that video of awesomeness to next day's post. 

I have tons of pictures to share!!! Be sure to check them out!!

My uncle Jay, aunt Jill, cousin's Jaylee, Willow and Elise, Elise's boyfriend, my mom and I were the group. 

Once we got home, we took long showers and scrubbed. Surprisingly, I'm clean!! I have some specks left, but nothing major. Nothing that obviously states I ran the Color Run a couple days ago. 

Relaxed and ready to lounge, I hung out on IMVU while finishing my gameplay series of Heavy Rain.

Why is that game friggin' amazing? Like, seriously... Can I find the person who thought it up and kiss them on the lips? (Only exaggerating honey!) THAT PERSON NEEDS TO KEEP MAKING GAMES!!!! Game plots, game characters; you name it. I didn't even play the game and it impacted me. 

Bravo.

I am tired... I can't believe I'm still awake! I need my rest... Waking up at 5 AM should be considered illegal... 

Yet I have to wake up at 6 each weekday for three months starting Monday.

Oh joy...

Not as joyous as the Color Run, though!!!!

P.S: The last picture I decorated. It didn't turn out that way when my mom took it.

Day 42 of North Carolina

Bland day.

I think I fixed my birth control cycle, but I'm unsure.

My chest feels better. Yesterday, it was sore from me throwing-up two times. It's very rare that I puke; more or less gag.

I didn't do anything today. Nothing special and worth while to put on here.

Tomorrow, I have to get up at 5 AM for a run starting at 8. My mom and I will be heading to Tacoma for the Color Run. I hope it'll be fun... without my eyes burning and my lungs suffocating from the powder.

Goodnight, everyone. 

Day 41 of North Carolina

Ready to hear what happened yesterday?

Yea, I bet you are.

First, I'll tell you about today...

It was less of an excitement than yesterday.

Now on to the interesting story:

Early afternoon, I had a great therapy session. I got a lot of unwanted feelings off of my chest. Afterwards, I went home to get ready for the fair.

Yesterday was the perfect day to go to the Puyallup Fair (AKA: The Washington State Fair) It was sunny, warm, and with blue skies. Bryndis tagged along as well as my parents, my grandma J and my grandma Bonnie. We couldn't wait to enter through the Blue Gate.

We followed a large group inside. Once in, we walked towards the Earthquake Burger stand. I didn't have anything else to eat previously. That burger was delicious! Ditto for the curly fries. Bryndis had half of my burger. When we were full, Bryndis and I separated from the adults. We wanted to do our own thing! We wanted to go on every ride possible without losing our lunch. 

Well, my ignorance got the best of me... I know myself well enough to figure out if I'll feel good after a certain ride or not. Yet I had a friend with me! Why should I chicken out?! 

Ten minutes after Bryndis and I ate, we came across a ride called Kamikaze. It was a ride similar to The Ring of Fire. But the Kamikaze had two coasters swiping up and down; one going one way, the other going in the opposite direction. I pushed my fear to the side and the bickering notion that I shouldn't do it. With Bryndis there, I almost felt pressured. Then again, I wanted to have a good time.

I should have listened to my bickering side...

The ride made me nauseous. I got dizzy and felt like I would pass out any minute. Yet I hung in there. One moment, everything was fine. The next moment, I thought I was going to faint and Bryndis' phone falls while we dangle upside down. Her phone's screen shatters as I talk to myself, telling my brain to stay online. 

The ride ends. I waddle off. Bryndis recovers her phone. She said her SIM card looked okay, but the rest of her phone was destroyed. Surprisingly, she was in a better mood than me. I had to find a bathroom pronto. We rushed inside. Bryndis called her parents on my phone to tell them the unfortunate mishap. I leaned over, catching my breath, and convincing my brain that I didn't need to puke. 

We went outside to sit on a bench, waiting for my blood to circulate. I let Bryndis do her own thing while I rested. She came back with a lemonade. Finally, after twenty solid minutes, I said to myself, "Don't kill Bryndis' first time at the Puyallup fair. Get up and have fun!" I got up, walked 15 feet in front of me before my eyes started watering and my mouth filled with saliva. I had to throw-up.

I ran to the woman's bathroom, hoping for an open stall.
Nope.
All I got was a line.
Instead of barging through, I held onto my mouth, jogged to a corner and hurled. I hate throwing-up... You feel as if you're going to suffocate on your own barf. I leaned over and puked whatever wanted to come out.

When I was done, I walked up to Bryndis with my head hung low. How embarrassing... I apologized to her. She said everything was cool. I texted my mom, telling her I up-chucked my burger, and she said to meet us at the place I first ordered it at.

Once there, mom handed me a water. She asked if I would like to join them or stay outside and wait. I suggested to stay outside and rest. I didn't want to walk any longer. I was afraid I would puke again.

I sat on a slab of cement. Bryndis waited with me. I continued to apologize for my sickness and how I wasn't giving her the greatest experience ever (Like I had planned) She kept telling me that she was having a blast. I hope she wasn't lying...

We sat there for ten minutes, allowing my stomach acid to settle. I sipped on my water while searching on the Internet what I could do after I had thrown-up. Then I remembered the solution of bread and/or Saltine crackers! I asked Bryndis if she would pretty please find me some bread. She said sure and went on her way. As I waited, I asked a lady, who worked the stand next to me, if she had any Tums. She said, "You know, I think I do." She walked inside the stand, came out with her purse and opened a small container. She said the stuff helped with heart burn. I asked if it helped with queasiness. She said yes. I took the two pills, watched the lady walk away, until popping one of the chewable pills in my mouth. I usually only take one of every medicine. I tossed the second pill behind me.

I know, I know... Don't take meds from strangers. I'm aware of that. But when you barf, you get desperate to feel better. That was my situation.
Bryndis came back with two burger buns. I ate a pinch and drank some water. I sat there, waiting for the pinch of bread to work it's magic.
Suddenly, my alarm went off on my phone. 7:00. Time to take my birth control pill. I was hesitant. I still felt like I needed to retch again. But I figured that was normal and assumed I wouldn't anymore. So, I took my BC pill. Then I began to worry. I wondered, "How quickly does a birth control pill absorb into your body?" I looked it up - three hours...
I felt hopeless. Three hours? For a tiny ass pill? I soon asked myself, "Well, Hell... I wonder how long it'll take to digest the heart burn pill?"

I shouldn't have brought that up...

I started to panic. What if that lady gave me something that could've reacted negatively with my body? I wouldn't know until I was face-first on the ground, having a seizure!
Unexpectedly, the feeling came back. I pulled off my purse and jacket, flung my body to the side and puked a second time... Right in front of God and everybody...

Again, Bryndis was totally cool with it.

I made acid soup. I kept puking until I was empty. I sat up, began shivering, and couldn't believe I just messed up my birth control cycle...

I should have stuck with my gut feeling and waited after I hurled again prior to taking my pill. But oh no! That night, I was ignorant... I regret acting like so.

I texted mom of my second time throwing-up. She asked me what I wanted to do. I knew going home wasn't an option; my mom wanted to stay for the Luminasia portion of the fair. I told her I didn't know what to do. So, we stayed at the fair. Thankfully, I felt a lot better after the second time I threw-up. I also sipped a bottle of Sprite.

Luminasia was fun. It made up what we lost during the daylight hours. I snapped tons of photos. Afterwards, Bryndis and I played a few games until we all went home.

Adventurous? More like unforgettable.

Day 40 of North Carolina

I'll talk about my crap day in tomorrow's post. I'm done for today...

Day 39 of North Carolina

I'm sitting in my living room, listening to an old Coca Cola clock tick. It ticks fast enough to let me know my day is almost over. But it ticks slow enough for me to continue to wait until Mason is home.

Let's tick back in time to September 16, 2012. It was a Sunday. I woke up beside Mason. We all knew what had to come of that day, yet we didn't act upon it. We acted like it was just another day in the year. Some tears were shed before Mason left to the Marine core building where his first minor training had began. But we, Moira, Mason and I, stayed strong for each other. 

Moira and I set off a flare, though it was a total failure, in celebration on Mason becoming a Marine. That one moment was a release; the adrenaline pumping through our veins as a hot flare danced among our feet until sliding under the house. We coughed and choked and laughed in the smoke. I walked inside after Moira had hosed down the whole area. I saw Mason. He wasn't smiling like we were. My smile faded quickly afterwards.

Ticking back to September 15, Saturday. I vaguely remember that day. Mason and I tried to stay positive, but we knew everyone in the house was mourning deep down. I almost tried to numb it out - I tried accepting Mason's departure and life in the military on that one night. It was agonizing. I still don't accept his military lifestyle but... it is what it is. I must accept it. It's ludicrous not to. 

I've never been a fan of the military. I respect them, but I shall forever stay away from it. I guess avoiding goes too far. I can't avoid Mason since he chose a path which will do greatly on our future. However, I have a passionate dislike for war... I'm blessed Mason doesn't want to do combat. 

Forwarding time to September 16. The hour is nigh. Mason had finished packing. His mother cried as Mason hugged her securely. I bowed my head, hiding my face under the bill of my hat, trying not to let them see my pained expression. 

I warmed up my car. I took a hold of Mason's hand and drove him to his destination. He sulked in the passenger side seat while I cooed to him, keeping my tears under my eyelids. 

I remember how beautiful that day was; sunny with blue skies. I felt like the world was taunting me on such a depressing day... Or, was it helping me ease my sadness?

When we got to the Marine core building, I let my emotions go. I embraced Mason like never before. He embraced me the same. We buried our faces into each other's shoulders, bawling and not caring who all saw. We kissed, we hugged, we praised one another for being so strong... then the actual goodbye had to come. Mason took off the special key necklace, the one that symbolizes the key to my heart, and he kissed it before handing it to me. I clutched it in a tight fist. I feared the day he would give me back that necklace. I wanted him to keep it but he couldn't. Boot camp wouldn't allow it.

The image that'll always be burned into my memory is when I had to drive away. Mason stood on the curb of the building's walkway and watched me blow him kisses and shape a heart using my fingers. I wanted to jump out of the car and hold him one last time, yet I knew I wouldn't let go then. 

I forced myself to look away. I forced myself to put the car in drive and pull into the road. I didn't want to do it - to leave him there - but I had to. I cried all the way home. 

September 17, Monday. Dad's and grandma's birthday. My parents and my two grandmas went to the Puyallup fair. I stayed home. I skipped school, too. I was a mighty big wreck. 

I sat alone in my house thinking about Mason; thinking about why I couldn't be with him that day, at the fair, having fun. 

Every couple of mornings following the 17th, I woke up crying. It felt as if someone stole my soul. I felt empty. I felt dead. Yet I carried on. I carried on for 360 days. And I'm still countin'. 

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Shout out to my dad and my grandma on their birthday's today. I love you guys. Thank you for all the years you've been taking care of me - through the thick and thin.

Day 38 of North Carolina

Guess what day tomorrow is?...

THE DAY GTA 5 IS RELEASED!!!! HELL YES!!!!!1111

I'm stoked.

I am stoked out of my MIND!!!!

That game is going to blow all of the other GTA games out of the WATER!!!! WHOO!

... You thought I was going to be depressing and remind everyone that tomorrow is also the one year anniversary of Mason being in the Marines, huh?

Well I am!!

...

Nah, but seriously, I am stoked for GTA 5 and stunned that a year has flown by since Mason had become a Marine. Crazy. Time is crazy. It'll make everything feel slow at first until you take a look over your shoulder and see either what you missed or what you remember. 

Speaking of time, I have great news!!! Mason will be stationed in California!!! Extremely south California, but that doesn't matter to me! What matters is the fact that 1) our time zones won't be different and 2) I love California and wouldn't mind flying down near San Diego. 

HOT DAMN!

Doesn't good news settle nicely inside your brain? Kind of like a remedy that eases the pain. 

I like it. 

Today wasn't bad. I woke up at 7:30 AM to chill with Scott who was on his way to his girlfriend's place. We hung out until 10:30. It was cool to see him.

Now, it's time to hit the ol' dusty trail on to bed. I don't want to sleep. I'd rather have the energy to keep talking to Mason, but he has to go to sleep sooner than me.

Goodnight everyone. 

Day 37 of North Carolina

Happy 62nd birthday, Pete Carroll. You got a well-deserved birthday present - taking care of the 49ers! 

Not only was the game exciting, but so was the weather!!! I woke up to a bomb of a thunder boom. I was so startled, I woke up covering my ears!!! But after a while, the thunder went off some place else. Yet it wasn't done... During the Seahawks game, it began POURING!!! Suddenly, the thunder started rumbling back. Even though our surround sound was on, the power of the thunder over-laid it a couple times. It was BRUTAL!!! So brutal, the game was suspended for an hour... Unbelievable!!! But I'm glad it happened...

The first quarter was sloppy. If we didn't get that unpredicted delay, we would have gotten our asses kicked by San Fran. I'm ecstatic that it went the other way around. I was worried! I was... The 49ers are great. They're definitely our rivals. It's a nice feeling to beat a team who usually beats us. 

29/3, baby!

Of course, we had a party at our house. We were so rilled up, I don't think I'll be able to SLEEP! Such adrenaline pumped through my veins!!! Makes me want to go outside and shout on the roof tops! 

I love football.

Congrats to the Seahawks. Keep up the outstanding wins! Take it to the Super Bowl! 

Day 36 of North Carolina

Why do I get pissed at the end of the day? Do others have this problem? They were in a good mood but once they become tired, they create a mini apocalypse? 

That's me.

All the time. 

Either it's because I get crappy sleep or because me and Mason's conversations have to end. I don't know. But it pisses me off.

;)

Seriously, guys; does the fact that you have to go to bed soon grind your gears? Maybe the younger folks understand, but how about the people who have jobs?

What's it like - the responsible way of life?

Anyway...

My day was cool. Played games, hung out on my computer... Same stuff, different date in the year. 

Day 35 of North Carolina

Well, I beat Tomb Raider. That was an AWESOME - no - FANTABULOUS game!!! Wowza!!!! I had so much fun playing it. I can't wait to play it for Mason. 

Tomorrow, I'm planning on playing Gay Tony, a GTA side story. I beat the other chapter of Liberty City Stories (I loved that one) I hope Gay Tony is as enjoyable. 

I saw Julia this evening. She's the mother of one of my ex's. Though my ex and I never speak to each other, the friendship between his family and ours isn't sour, which is nice. Julia came over to walk with mom. They do it every blue moon. But it feels like I haven't seen Julia in decades. It was great to see her!

Another outstanding thing happened... Dad was accepted to the Boston Marathon!!! Congrats, old timer! Be sure to break a leg!!! But not literally...

Nothing else occurred. Not bad for a Friday the 13th. 

Day 34 of North Carolina

Decent day. Nothing special. The only things that were cool was getting my computer battery today (now my computer works like a charm) and painting my nails. They're the color ghetto people paint their crappy Honda's with - that color that changes colors. Yet it's a burnt gold. Looks nice. Nothin' pretty. But I like it. My mom did them. No professional, but she still got the paint on the nails.

Day 33 of North Carolina

Hey there. 

Okay day.

Watched movies, had a decent therapy session, got my back adjusted... Not much happened today. 

It was really hot.

But... That's it...

Did anybody do anything for Sept/11th? I'm sure there are mourning families somewhere... I pray for them. God Bless America.

Day 32 of North Carolina

Today was awesome!!! I hung out with Bryndis!!!! She brought over some stupid movies and we made fun of them. Spaceballs, Airplane and Kung Pow Into The Fist were our movie choices. My favorite out of all of them was Airplane. I laughed the most to that one. Spaceballs is a close first and Kung Pow is a low third. Still, I had great fun watching them and laughing at the idiotic scenes with Bryn. 

We made SodaSTREAM in the middle of Airplane. Except, when I tried it, the water erupted everywhere! I had put too much water, I didn't twist the bottle shut and the spout was in the wrong position! Three strikes, I'm out. I asked mom to help. 

After making popcorn, soda and eating anything else, we baked Halloween cookies! I missed cooking those with grandma. It's usually a tradition during Halloween. 

After that, we hung out in the front room with mom and talked story. Did you know the Puyallup fair is now called the Washington State fair? How outrageous is THAT?! I grew up to it being the Puyallup fair - just like how I grew up knowing Pluto as our ninth planet. 

Some people piss me off. The Puyallup fair will ALWAYS be the Puyallup fair. I'm thinking of creating shirts that have a slogan announcing that changing its name was a stupid idea. 

Anyway, I loved today. I had fun. I hope Bryndis did too. We're thinking of going to the Puyallup fair next Tuesday! Do the Puyallup! 

Day 31 of North Carolina

Shortest post ever:

My day stunk. The only nice parts were getting my back adjusted and feeling accomplished for impressing Fang with my Jeff the Killer: Remake. 

The End.

Day 30 of North Carolina

You know what irritates me? Not being able to write down my feelings. It just seems IMPOSSIBLE for me... I don't want to write it down, I want to express it with either emotion or through speaking. I try and try and try again to write down a beautiful little memoir of how I feel on certain things but it doesn't seem GOOD enough!!!! Why mustn't I vanquish this feat?! 

I do have therapy this Wednesday. Maybe I can get out what's on my mind by then. Because God help me, paper and pen ain't doin' a damn thing. 

My day was alright. I think my mental stability is being tossed out the window in itty bitty bits. My sanity is taking it's time before suddenly inviting IN to it's life. 

Get it? Inviting IN to sanity's life? That means insanity-

Oh whatever. My jokes are helpless these days...

I finished Jeff the Killer: Remake this morning. I sent it to Fang, my mom, my aunt and to Mason. I wonder who'll finish first????

I know my mom started on it. I'm glad someone's acknowledging my work. 

Tuesday I have plans with Bryndis who wants to have a movie marathon with me at my crib. That'll be interesting! During the visit, mom's going to try and see what's wrong with my laptop. Poor, Johnny. It's all my fault! :(

-sigh- Here's a cat picture. This might warm the mood. Its Cheetah chillin' in my mom's workout bag.

If I Fits, I Sits.

Day 29 of North Carolina

The only good part about today was seeing Paul, my friend's dad. 

I guess I don't need to hide his identity. He's an author. He gets around.

The man I've been talking about is Paul Schmid. He writes and illustrates children's books. I've known him since I was a little girl. I'm the friend of his daughter, Anna, who I grew up with in my aunt's child care. I haven't seen Anna and Paul in years.

Paul visited our local Barnes and Noble store. He read his books to the small crowd of small children and smiling parents. He LOOKED like an author. Old-fashioned glasses, grubby beard, tired eyes, but held a smirk. He even had a cast on his leg! I didn't ask him what happened since we were so caught up with other things, but I'll be sure to inquiry the next time I see him, which hopefully is soon.

He still left the door open for a visit at his studio. His studio is where he lives. I'm glad him and his family haven't moved, haha.

The rest of the day was... fine. Another day to check-off. 

But! There'll be more days to come with events assigned to them. I would be happy to oblige. 

Day 28 of North Carolina

Another crap day. Just some relationship problems this time... 

Other than that, my day was okay. The weather was bipolar but tolerable. 

I don't have much to say. I backed up my computer, I contacted my therapist, and I'm trying to get Indigo to eat a piece of banana. He's stubborn when it comes to his veggies and fruits. 

Tomorrow, I'm excited to see my friend's dad. I'll have a few questions to ask about being an author/illustrator. My dad's running a marathon this Sunday. I think he wants to get a better time for being a Boston qualifier. Good luck to him.

Day 27 of North Carolina

My day was going well. Until I realized my laptop is going to crap. I blame the battery. Actually, I blame myself. When I dropped my laptop a couple months back, I chipped something on the inside. It's been loose ever since. I'm wondering if that loose piece is part of the inner battery. The outer looks fine, yet I'm no computer expert. Lately, my HP has been suddenly turning off when it's low on battery. I plug it back in - everything is in order. Just this evening, the battery was fully charged, I was turning off my computer, I decided to unplug it when BAM, my laptop shuts down abruptly. This is new. I figured "Maybe it needed an update and I didn't see it." So, I tried turning my computer back on yet it wouldn't. It needed assistance from the charger. I plugged it in, turned it on, once it was fully up, I unplugged it and BAM... turns off again.

Just another obstacle in my already tough course...

This laptop isn't even four years old yet it's acting like my previous laptop in which is four years old. Everything my newer laptop is doing made sense to my older one since it was getting old. But my newer one? No. That doesn't make any sense unless something is wrong. There has to be. I looked up the facts and eHow suggested it might be the battery. I guessed that's the problem. Even Fang speculates that's the issue. I need to take my laptop to a specialist ASAP. I can't live without it... 

But before that, I want to back-up my computer. I don't want to lose EVERYTHING. 

Maybe tonight's thunder and lightning storm will raise my spirits.