Day 23 of Florida

I've been having morbid dreams lately. I don't know where they come from, like their concepts, but I have been depressed and angry. The... NIGHTMARES I've been dreaming up deal with either death or hurt or rage... I toss and turn at night... It's horrible. I don't like it at all. So, I'm drinking this drink called "neuro sleep." It's supposed to have these chemicals in the liquid that prone your brain into getting sleepy and wanting to sleep solidly. Hopefully it works.

Today was boring as Hell. I skipped Math again (after getting a review packet for our math Final on Monday) but dealt with ITAL presentations and ENGL lectures.

Once home, I watched more lovely episodes of SNL from the 70s. I talked to Mason on IMVU. He was sending me pictures of himself (NO! NOT NUDE, SICKO!) to cheer me up. However, I suddenly burst out crying!!! I was happy one moment, then the next I was blubbering like the day I was born!!!

I used to do that when Mason was in Boot Camp. I mean, we had no contact - only letters... It was a very lonely time. I guess emotional breaks downs are Second Nature to me...

Yet I'll stay positive! For example; tomorrow I have a conference with my ENGL teacher to see if I pass and get an approval that I'm ready for ENGL 101! I'm nervous, but ready for an answer.

Another cool thing... Mom got to take a photo and film an eagle who perched himself on our phone pole... We don't live in the outskirts!!! That was shocking!!! And beautiful!!! I wish I would have been home.

I am getting sleepy, now. Maybe that drink works after all. Maybe I won't have nightmares tonight and I'll have a pleasant tomorrow.

Goodnight everyone.

Day 22 of Florida

Peeps! I'm tired as all heck... I presented today in ITAL. Everyone was impressed with my PowerPoint!!!! ... Not sure about my speech though... I didn't do so good at talkin'.

I had no idea what I was saying!

Anyway, how are you guys??? I'm doing well, thanks!!! In ENGL, I turned in my portfolio (one Final down! Two to go!) and in MATH... Well, I don't know what they did because I skipped the class. I was done for the day!!!

I know there is something going on for tomorrow, I just can't pin-point it out... Hmm... Hopefully nothing that involves thinking. If I don't have anything to do, I'll play Bejewled to try and defeat my current record!!!! Want to know what my current record is??? Here you go!!!:

(Can you beat me?!)

Day 21 of Florida

Hey guys!

I did my ITAL performance today and all went well! I'm proud of my group. :) I'm happy I didn't have to deal with a bunch of snobs like last quarter... I might have shot myself in the foot if that were to happen AGAIN.

Or, act like I was having a panic attack. One of the kids in another group supposedly had one due to the anxiety of actually memorizing lines and performing in front of a class. However, me and a few others speculated that the SKIT couldn't have been the ONLY thing that was driving him to over-exert himself.

Tomorrow, I have another ITAL presentation. But this time, I'm on my own... I need to develop a script. I'm getting up at 6 in the morning to do so. Hopefully I can get it done in time before class!! ... If not, I'd be screwed because I can't memorize that much grammatically correct Italian.

Wish me luck!

In ENGL, we had a workshop for our final essay. I didn't do anything other than play "4 Pics 1 Word." I have a feeling my essay is already good enough. C+? Maybe a B-? Hell, make it a solid A and I'd be golden!

The math test wasn't as difficult as I was expecting it to be! How long was it??

... 2 pages...

I finished it in... 15 minutes. Literally, I turned the page of the second paper and when I noticed I was staring at a desk top, I made the biggest puzzled expression EVER! I didn't understand!! 6 sections?! 2 pages worth?!

Fine by me! A quick test means a quick drive home!

When I got home, I watched an SNL episode prior to going to the doctor. Yes, yes I'm ALRIGHT!!! Just a simple girlie check-up was all! No need to fret.

Once BACK home, I watched MORE SNL, laughing my ass off as usual, before starting my PowerPoint.

Ugh... I can't wait for that 10 day break... Even though I'll be getting up at 5 each morning (so I could get used to a quarter's long of it), I won't have to worry about homework or annoying traffic jams. Just plain ol' Netflix and a glass of milk. :) Oh! And of course... MY HONEY! Can't forget him, right? ;D

By the way, he starts school on this coming up Thursday. I wish him luck, I know he'll do perfectly fine, and I want him to know that I love him very much and I'm with him in his heart. <3

Day 20 of Florida

I found SNL on Netflix. I just finished watching Episode... uhh... Well, I do know I'm still on Season 1. I forgot they started that show in the 70s and STILL CONTINUING! I love SNL. Finally... I have something to do in my free time.

If you are wondering what happened with my story, I'm sort of slacking because of the finals and the projects. Sheesh, I have to act tomorrow in ITAL and on Wednesday, I have to present my individual presentation as well as turn in my ENGL portfolio.

I miss writing my story, though - don't get me wrong. But being stressed and depressed can kill EVERYTHING. Shoot, I'm even jealous over my boyfriend having a funner time in the Marines than I am in the civilized world.

Now, I'm beating myself up for being jealous over my one true love... Is it really wrong??? Is it wrong if I'm jealous over the people I care for? It doesn't mean I love them any less!! It's just because I'm unhappy with my life and this depression can't let me go through, with what I want, to keep me stable; to have me happy.

I know for the people who are reading this and don't have depression, they aren't totally understanding my disadvantage. Even Mason doesn't understand. He'll say he does, but he truly doesn't.

I won't go on like this anymore... I shouldn't... It brings down my viewers.

My day went well. My ITAL group had a scare when we only noticed half of the skit was written out on our Google DOC. The restaurant owner dude went off to a cabin he rented with a friend. He wasn't here today, in class, so we didn't know what to do. We emailed him a few times; that was all we could do. Thankfully, just a couple hours ago, the guy typed up the rest of the script and I easily copy and pasted it into a Word Document for printing tomorrow morning. We'll be using note-cards... We can't memorize all of it... It'll deduct points yet we don't care.

ENGL was a bother and MATH was boring.

I have a long test in MATH tomorrow. I'm also going to the doctor for a check-up.

Wish me luck on tomorrow for... all that I have listed! Ta-ta!

Methane Bubbles, Alaska

 

The first clear ice of fall on an Alaskan lake captures methane that all summer long has bubbled from the bottom mud. In spring it will be released into the air. As permafrost melts, new lakes are forming all around the Arctic.

Day 19 of Florida

Just finished watching 6 hours of old ass PewDiePie videos... Holy crap.

He was playing Dead Space 2. His favorite phrases were, "Not gonna lie." and "I hate them so frickin' much!"

He was sort of annoying back in the day... Glad he changed for the better. Haha.

I did nothing today. A few homework assignments then YouTube for the rest of the day.

I'm not looking forward to this week, especially since my sleeping habits have gotten worse. My dreams are distracting and so is the heater. My dad or my mom keep turning up the heat! My body is sensitive!!! I don't like being cooked as I slumber!

Anyway, about the week, we're getting closer and closer to finals. I still need to memorize my lines for the ITAL skit, I still need to do the PowerPoint of my individual presentation... Obviously I'm avoiding those tasks for a reason... Because I'm exhausted! But I have to do it... in order to pass and all. Next quarter, I'm not suffering with ITAL or ANY OTHER LANGUAGE again. I'm done with learning another language. If I wish to learn another language, I'm buying Rosetta Stone. That's IT. I'm done taking tests and having too many assignments...

Lazy?

No... Just bored of the word "homework."

I guess that is all. I hope I won't have nightmares tonight... Dead Space isn't a friendly Family-Get-Together type of game. However, I surprisingly had an appetite as I watched Pewds kill these human/monster zombie creatures.

Eh... PewDie can make ANYTHING not seem dramatically scary. I mean, it's still suspensful to watch, but you feel content in a way because this dude, narrating his gameplay, is such a big goober.

Nonetheless, I must admit, I've almost spilled milk, that would be on my portable desk, from flinching horrifically hard on the jumpscares. Of course, Pewds would do the same exact thing.

Love ya, PewDie! -Brofist-

Day 18 of Florida

I slept in until 11:30 today.

... After waking up at 1:30 AM and not falling back asleep until 4. I was so wide awake, I wrote a letter to PewDiePie that I'll be sending to him on Monday.

I was really, really hot last night AND I couldn't stop conjuring up sad dreams! Ironically, Mason woke up at 2:00ish (my time) for this run that everybody was doing. He sent me a "Good morning" text and I sent him one back. I'm pretty sure he was confused. But I told him why I was awake and he said I'd better go back to sleep soon.

Well, if "soon" to him is two hours, then I succeeded.

The rest of the day was boring as Hell. I watched a documentary on Netflix called "Waiting for 'Superman.'" If you've never seen that movie and are concerned for children's education, please check it out. It is brilliant. I learned things I didn't even believe could be possible; like how there is a policy stating teachers can't be fired after a certain amount of years of being a teacher. They could be the lousiest teacher in the whole school, and not get laid off. Scary, right? I'm definitely putting my kids into private schools.

Did you know that a single inmate costs more than a student going to a private college? This is in a YEAR, people. In one year, more money is spent on a no-good nobody than a soon-to-be somebody.

Another great movie I watched was called "Everything Or Nothing." It was a documentary on how the James Bond series became so epically famous.

It has been 50 years since the James Bond series started. 50 years!!!

It was only a year ago that I learned Sean Connery was one of the FIRST James Bond's!!

I want the DVD set that has every single LAST James Bond movie ever created in it. But I heard it was stupid crazy expensive.

I DON'T CAAAAAAAAARE!!!!!

... Maybe I should be the FEMALE James Bond this Halloween...?

Currently, mom is taking care of my dad's friend's son while dad and his friend are out partying. I babysat for a while until I got a headache. Now I'm upstairs in my room typing this post!!!

I'm also on the phone with Mason, so I'm going to go and chat with him before falling asleep.

Peace.

Day 17 of Florida

I drank a full NOZ today and I'm sleepy right now...

LAME CHEMICALS ARE LAME!!!

I'm glad it is Friday. Feels like yesterday it was the other Friday. Gosh darn it, these weeks are flying by!!! I like it that way <3

I just got off of the phone with Mason. I'm having depression issues so we talked it out and had myself feeling better in a jiff. I think I just needed to hear his voice. Lately, we haven't been Skyping or calling because I didn't want to be that pestering girlfriend who took her boyfriend away from his amigos. That's bad... But after the chat, I figured out I'm not pestering him whatsoever (Thank Jesus). Anything after 2 or 3 (my time) works for him. That's when he's free.

Today was good. The ITAL project it FINISHED!!... Almost. Now we need to practice!!! I don't even know what my lines are :D I'll soon find out, though. This lady named Anita is typing up the script for us.

ENGL was useless...

MATH was quick...

And PewDie's videos are AWESOME!!!

I'm thinking of sending him a letter, telling him thank you for his amazing entertainment because it helps my days go by as my boyfriend, Mason, deals with the Marines.

You think Pewds would like it???

I hope so. He seems compassionate enough!