Mason and I

Mason and I

Wednesday, August 14, 2013

Day 5 of North Carolina

Well, I officially dub thee week a crappy one. Beyond crappy. Sinister. 

I hate myself this week. Why am I going through so much agony? What did I do to deserve this????

It all started on Monday when my dad underestimated my power. On Sunday, he showed me a picture of a Sudan... Remember that? Yea, well, I told both of my parents if they bought an eighth car, I'd move out. On Monday, my mom reminded dad of what I would do if they purchased another car. Dad said "You're not going anywhere." And ever since then, my dignity has fallen through the cracks.

Yesterday I had a mental breakdown, feeling useless. Today, I feel even more useless. I thought today would put me back in shape but... that didn't happen.

I hope my therapist will reply to my call of need soon... Or I'm jumping on anti-depressants faster than you could figure out their risks.

Now, enjoy this picture of how supposedly smart I am with science...


Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Day 4 of North Carolina

I had a mental breakdown today... I thought my brain was about to explode but thankfully, it didn't. 

I don't really want to talk about today because it was mainly full of crying and hoping I'd disappear. Pretty grim stuff.

I will say Happy Birthday to Fang. I apologize to him for me not being on IMVU in celebration. I'm sure he'll understand why once I tell him tomorrow. 

I also would like to share a picture of my OTHER future husband, Johnny Depp. How come? Because I can. <3


Monday, August 12, 2013

Day 3 of North Carolina

I kind of had a rotten day today. Only because of my emotions swirling in and out of control. If I didn't mention my emotions, my day was fine. Ordinary. Dealing with moronic parents and missing my hubby. 

The morning was nice besides being woken up by nightmares... I'll tell that bit later. But for now, I want to brag about my newest art piece. I think it took me four hours to complete. It's a comic about Pluto. That's all I'm going to say. See for yourself what it's about at the bottom of this dialogue. 

Let's discuss my nightmare, shall we? I want to see how many of you nonexistent readers have had a dream similar to mine...

I don't know what to title it. It's too short anyway. I'll just tell you... I had a nightmare about Death coming into my room. I peaked through my eye lids to see who was entering my room when I saw a man cloaked in a black ritual robe. My eyes shot open in surprise. Now the person was looming near my bed. That's when I found out that he wasn't human... It was Death! 

I think I woke up for a split second, panting in fear! Creepy stuff.

When I was finally awake, I remembered the dream and told myself I wasn't going back to sleep! No way. I want to stay conscience and ALIVE. 

I wasn't able to hang out with Mason today over the Internet... He needs to buy it. Tomorrow he promises he'll be online with NO LIMITATIONS!!! ... Except for sleep.

Alright, that's it for my day. I hope yours was fairly good. If it wasn't, maybe my art will cheer you up. Viola!: 


Sunday, August 11, 2013

Day 2 of North Carolina

Today was okay... Not one of the best, but I'm still alive so I shouldn't complain too much.

I will acknowledge the fact that my parents are car hoarders. I don't need an official to tell me. I can clearly see it for myself... My dad showed me a picture of a Sudan. He said he wanted to buy it so we could buy a trailer. I asked which car we would be selling in exchange for the Sudan.

He said none.

Do you know how many cars we would have? Eight. Five original, every day vehicles and three classics.

I think I said we own eight cars already in a previous post. I apologize. That number was meant to be seven.

I was never good at math...

Anyway, after pissing and moaning about my parents fetish to Mason, I dealt with an idiot on IMVU. I couldn't hold back my rage. I would have left the room if Mason was at his computer. But he had to go to a Formation, leaving his avatar idle. I didn't want to look selfish and lend my boyfriend's avatar to some creep who couldn't stop touching us! I stayed and ranted at him. Soon, he stopped. Before he left, he thanked me for entertaining him.

People...

Speaking of which, Mason and I had a deep conversation about humans hating other humans. I recorded the discussion in my photo library. I'll share one part of it to brag how supposedly smart I am. ;)


Saturday, August 10, 2013

Day 1 of North Carolina

That's right! Mason made it safe and sound to N. Carolina. At first, he was desperate to come home - acting as if he were about to break down. He has to start over again. He's not bunking with his main friends anymore. He's bunked with two other friends. Thankfully, the room is only temporary. Where he's at now, it has awful cell service. After a few weeks, he'll be placed somewhere else (maybe with other people as well) once schooling begins.

Last night, Mason and I Skyped for a while until I began nodding off. He called me, we talked for another 45 minutes before heading to bed. I thought I was going to sleep solidly from my sudden exhaustion, yet that didn't occur. It was quite the opposite...

I turned on a small fan to cool myself off. My small fan disrupts certain sound waves. I can hear people talking or it could make airplane turbulence resemble thunder. I wasn't hearing chatter, I was hearing turbulence. Or... so I thought. My window was halfway open. I could clearly hear rumbling. But I wasn't sure if it was thunder or turbulence. Unexpectedly, I saw a bright, blue flash light up the neighbors house. My adrenaline kicked in and I was soon fully awake.

I texted Mason about a possible storm. I also woke up mom. Mason told me to stay calm, snuggle a stuffed animal or blanket, and listen to Ambience if the thunder gets too uncomforting. I agreed but continued to text him. He had to get up early for his flight. However, that didn't matter to me. What did matter was my safety and the fact of a soon-to-be raging electrical storm.

I went downstairs with mom to watch the show. I walked outside to take video of the storm booming in the distance. The skies around our house lit up like flickering light bulbs. An occasional streak of lightning zoomed across the clouds. It startled me... I hopped back inside.

The storm began around 10 PM. It didn't end until 2 AM. Mom and I sat in our theatrical chairs. My nose relaxed on the headrest. I watched as the storm came closer... and closer... and closer. Every few minutes, mom went outside to call for our cat Fluffy. He didn't come in until this morning. But at the time, we were paranoid for his well-being. We didn't know whether he ran away, scared, or he was safe in hiding.

The lightning and thunder became more frequent. Suddenly, it was above our house. I prayed a lightning bolt wouldn't come dangerously close to our home. I knew I was in harms way by sitting near a window. If a lightning bolt decided to connect with something a couple feet from our house, the blast radius would shatter glass. Yet I stayed put. I was fascinated by the lightning. It slithered along the clouds and lapped the ground. The thunder cracked, telling us how far away the bolt made touchdown.

After an hour, I felt content. Still startled, but nothing to be afraid of.

I spoke too soon.

Once my fear died, a large lightning bolt snapped across the sky, touching down some place close. My flinch-reflexes were drastic. I ducked in front of the headrest and plugged my ears. I screamed, "OH GOD" out of initiate reaction. I started to panic. I started to hyperventilate. I have never witnessed a lightning bolt so close. And the thunder coming from that bolt was MONSTEROUS. It vibrated the house.

It wasn't the only close encounter. We experienced multiple close calls with electricity. Every time, I panicked and became terrified. But for some reason, I wanted to keep watching! I was in a sort of trance! This storm was beautiful to me. Horrifying, but beautiful.

Mom and I went upstairs an hour before the storm ended. It wasn't as dramatic anymore. I felt decent enough to cease guarding my house. Yet I was far from settling. I still saw flashes light up the sky and I could still hear the thunder deeply grumble. I wondered if I should see if Mason would want to talk to me, to comfort me. But I digressed. I said to myself, "He has a busy day tomorrow. Let him sleep! You should, too. Everything is okay now." So, I listened to my self-conscience and laid my sleepy head.

Prior to falling asleep, my phone buzzed. It jolted me awake. I got an email. I was curious to see what email would be sent at a time like that. It was from Fang. I figured, "This must have delayed. He'd be asleep by now." Again, I was wrong. He was awake still! I rushed online through IMVU2Go (an IMVU iPhone app.) and invited him. I told him I needed to chat with him. I told him about the continuous storm. I asked if he could Skype with me. He agreed and we both hopped online.

We chit-chatted the entire time as the storm passed. Yet I didn't want to go. I was having so much fun with Fang! Nevertheless, at 3 AM, we were pretty beat. I asked him if he would like to fall asleep with me over Skype, like what Mason and I do. He said it was perfectly fine. And so, that's what we did. I woke up this morning, seeing Fang already awake. We said our Good Morning's, Skyped a little longer until he had stuff to do.

Today, I watched movies. I watched all three Matrix movies. Disappointingly, I forgot how freakin' epic each one is. They never bore me. Ever. Never ever... Evah.

Mason hasn't seen The Matrix. I told him that we'll be watching them as soon as he comes home.

Besides movies, I did the usual; waiting for something to happen on IMVU. People-observing. Nothin' like a good observation of hopeless idiots, eh? ;)

 

Friday, August 9, 2013

Day 171 of Florida

Quick post!!!

I did nothing today. I watched movies and goofed on IMVU but that was it. My ass hurt I sat so much today. 

Tomorrow, Mason is waking up at 3:30 (my time) to leave for North Carolina. 

I don't know what else to say. This is a seriously short post. 

To make sure you guys don't get furious with me, here's an adorable cat picture of Cheetah sleeping under a pillow!:


Thursday, August 8, 2013

Day 170 of Florida

Guess who's the next biggest fan of Breaking Bad???

MEEEEEEE!!!!!

I never thought I'd get into a show. I've tried and tried again to follow a show but I'm too damn lazy to set times and dates on when I'll watch the next episode. 

Thank God for Netflix, huh?

I finished the first season today. I started at 2 and ended at 9:30. BRILLIANT!!!! The only time I had a break was when I took a 30 minute walk. But if you take that out, I watched Breaking Bad for seven straight hours.

I don't even know how I accomplished that.

The show is... ironically... HIGHLY addicting. I'm most likely going to knock off season two tomorrow IF I have no plans. Other than that, it's me and my computer on a strange date with Bryan Cranston. 

Besides therapy at noon and a walk in the early evening, that's all I did today. Watched Breaking Bad whilst fiddling with IMVU. 

Ta!