Day 158 of San Diego

You know how you're so upset, your heart feels like a rock? My heart feels like that today. It's beating hard and slow; struggling to circulate the thick blood through my thin veins. 

My life is a struggle right now. But I'm not looking for sympathy. I'm here to give you a reason why people should dislike me:

I talked about Mason to mom without realizing I hadn't muted him on Skype. I won't repeat what I said. It wasn't anything horrible. I was telling mom what Mason used to do that concerned me. But I don't know if Mason got that far in the conversation... He ended the call without me noticing. I read in the message board, "I heard what you said." 

I guess the Mute button on your laptop doesn't mute your microphone. 

Word to the unwise. 

I'm not going to defend myself and say, "Well, Mason shouldn't have been listening anyway!" That's stupid! I got busted. I deserve the punishment. 

I'm letting Mason have some space. I doubt he wants to talk to me.

I know I would be upset if Mason started talking about stuff I did in my past.

I'm not looking for forgiveness right now. I'm not looking for it for a couple days. 

I admit it. I deserve to be scorned down upon. It was my fault. I shouldn't have brought up the subject. 

You should have seen the look on his face when I peeked at the screen after I started babbling... 

On another note... Here are some Selfies with my cat Fluffy. Maybe these will lighten the mood: