Day 10 of Fourth Leave

Mason and I came home yesterday. But I wasn't in the mood to type up a post. This year's Independence Day weekend wasn't as glorious as I expected it to be... My family was annoying the Christ out of me... Even Mason noticed the scams I had to put up with. 

Like with my mom... On Friday, once showing up to the lake property, I forgot to grab pillows. So, I asked my grandma if I could borrow two pillows from her. My mom walks in and says something like, "You don't need to ask for pillows" and then walks in front of grandma for a split second before moving to the side again. I guessed what my mom did. I figured she lipped to my grandma telling her to not give Mason and I pillows. I shouted, "Why are you telling grandma not to give us pillows?!" Mom didn't say anything. But the look on my little cousin's face said it all. She was smiling really wide, which meant I was right. Nevertheless, grandma let me take pillows. 

After mom and grandma walked away and I grabbed two pillows from my grandparents' trailer, I overheard grandma telling mom, "It's my job. I'm a grandma." Again, I guessed mom and her were talking about grandma allowing me to take pillows. Jesus... It's not like I asked for $100 from my grandma to spend on IMVU credits.

The rest of the day was full of teasing and feeling like an outcast. At least my family acknowledged Mason. He deserved the love. 

The only fun part was at nightfall. The family set off a few fireworks before watching the neighboring properties set off fireworks. I snuggled Mason as we watched the show. 

Our family hasn't celebrated 4th of July at the lake property in a long time. I was wishing I would have a lot more fun. 

I waited for tomorrow to be a better day. It didn't happen... I decided to leave. Mason was fine with it. We packed up a half hour after waking up. I was done. 

But being on my period didn't cure the drama. Continuing onto today, I've been upset over everything... My mood is horrendous... I had to take mood fixing pills in order to help myself out. 

Yet I'm sad again because Mason's at his friend's house. His friend wants him to spend the night. I could have joined, but I would feel like the oddball. Mason and Alex are too tight to include me into their inside jokes and silly behaviors. So, I usually stay out of it unless Alex really wants me to join them. 

Alex and I are friends, however Mason and him are way more than Alex and I. Which is fine. 

I'm just super lonely currently. Not even a person is talking to me on IMVU... I'm sitting downstairs watching movies and texting Mason and my friend Blue...