Day 291 of San Diego

It has almost been three years since Daniel's incident. For some reason, my mind can feel the anniversary closing in. November 22nd, 2011 changed my life. I know I've written in previous posts of what occurred, but it's as if I can't explain it enough. My thoughts have constantly brought up dreams of Daniel and memories of Daniel and questions about Daniel. For the whole day today, I couldn't stop thinking about trying to find him.

Lake Meridian Park will be the first place to visit. That's where the crime happened. I want to immerse myself in the environment; see what Daniel and the girl saw, hear what they could have heard, felt what they could have felt. I might walk around the neighborhood and ask a few neighbors if they know of or personally knew Daniel. If I have a lead, I'll take it.

School was exhausting. Again, I had terrible sleep. Waking up at midnight to pop a pill is a drag... I'm also waking up around - I believe - four o'clock. I could be waking up to my dad's alarm. However, I am dreaming a lot. So, I could be waking up from violently tossing and turning.

I'm sort of uncomfortable to fall asleep tonight... I'm not sure if I'll have dreams about Daniel... I most likely will. Whenever I feel the longing desire to find him, I dream about him.

I miss him.

That's all I have to say.

Dangerous Beauty

Disguised by the beauty of a reflection, this toxic tailings pond in Alberta, Canada, is a considerable health risk. Such vast lakes—made up of oil sands development residue, or tailings—are completely unlined, and 19 of them lie on either side of the Athabasca River. Individual ponds can range in size up to 8,850 acres. (By: Garth Lenz)