Day 6 of Leave

I'm home. Ready to explode tomorrow.

Psh, I feel like exploding... Not in a good way, either.

I feel lonely again. All of the emotions that I felt during Mason's absence has flooded back into my brain... It's horrible! I hate the emotions that I felt while he was gone! They were confusing and agonizing; not what I want to deal with all over again.

Today, Mason dressed in his Blues to go see Lily and her son, Ashton. I dressed up as well. I got to meet Aaron, Ashton's proud dad, and he seemed pretty excited. I got to hold little Ash a couple of times. I was nervous, I will admit. I'm a clumsy broad - I didn't want to accidently flinch and the child goes flying.

He is REALLY cute. While Mason held him, I got teary eyed. It was BEAUTIFUL! Crazy enough, he's an uncle now. He whispered to Ash, "I'm your super cool uncle." Haha.

We only stayed for an hour. I don't know why. I would have liked to stay there for a couple more hours. Sheesh, I didn't want to stop holding Ashton! Hehe, he's adorable :) I'm attached to him already.

I'm too darn snugly!

Currently I am sitting in my purple chair texting Mason and updating this blog. It's weird texting him now... I feel like I should be sending him letters, not texts :/ I guess it's going to take a while until I'm fully adjusted to him being home... It's like a friggin' dream, man. A dream that's come true but... you almost don't want to believe it because if you wake up, and you realize it was all an illusion, you'll feel like complete ass. I don't want to feel like that anymore!!!

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I don't want to sleep in my bed tonight. It'll feel just like when Mason was gone and I'd lie there... thinking. That's all I would do. I couldn't sleep, so I'd lie there and ponder. I'd daydream, I'd cry; that bed is a sad memory of what it was like during those couple of months.

Change is difficult. That's why, depending on what it is and/or the situation, I don't like it very much.