Day 15 of Camp P.

Hiiiii!

Simple day, once again, for the simple-minded ;)

How is everyone? I'm doing well. But this morning I almost had a breakdown.

I don't know if I shared this with you all, but before I got used to Mason's absence, I would wake up each morning bawling.

Now I'm kind of used to him being away.

Sort of.

As I was saying, it almost happened to me AGAIN this morning. Yet I stopped it, thankfully. Was NOT going to ruin my day already...

Nothing happened at college because things were either behind or terribly easy!!!

Nevertheless, the CUTEST thing occurred in ITAL class... Our teacher brought in her little tiny tot of a foster child, named Kiera.

So... Friggin'... Adorable <3

Our teacher seems inexperienced with kids. It shows quit well, haha. But I'm sure she isn't a bad parent. Just a new one.

When I got home, I rested. I only had ITAL homework and it was tough :/ I hate tough stuff to the point I have to read the rules on how to do things.

Blah.

Currently I'm on IMVU and listening to the rain pour. Hello, Rain. How do you do? It's been a while, yes? I think so too.

:) My little rhyme to end this post.

P.S: I wrote this in my car while waiting for the time to go by. It's part of a letter I was writing to Mason. I wanted to share it with you guys to show what it feels like being me right now with a boyfriend far, far away:

"I wish you could answer back to me. Asking questions and getting no reply is sort of... saddening. You feel like you're in this bubble; your own little world. Everything is fine, some drama here and there, but pretty much your life in this bubble is normal.

However, in this bubble of yours, you are missing something. You know (or don't know) what it is, yet you can't have it. But you act as if it is there anyway! Some days, you are perfectly fine pretending the thing is with you. And then other days, you feel sick to your stomach from realizing the reality of that thing not being there; it was all imagination.

Soon, you get lonely.

Then, you get depressed.

Next, you don't want to do a single thing because you'd rather wait for YOUR thing instead of dealing with other things.

Nevertheless, there's always that one morning or one afternoon or one evening when you wake up or do something or see someone and you feel lively again! Your thing is still with you, but not physically, and that's okay.

Because in the end, what you're missing, will come around the corner soon enough.

<3 Hope and Love <3

That's what keeps us going."