Day 125 of San Diego

I feel really weird these days. Like something isn't right. Something is unbalanced. I know I'm unbalanced emotionally. Maybe that's what's bothering my mind? I'm bothered that I'm being treated rightly by a man who claims he loves me when I can be as rude as his mother and accuse him of things that might be farther from the truth... 

It's hysteria, I tell you.

I'm not trying to make excuses... I'm just trying to fix myself... Some how explain over the Internet that I'm sick and need dire help.

As if someone's going to comment on this post, telling me the answers to rejuvenating myself - becoming a better and happier being!

I just want answers. I want answers to questions that may be hard to believe or are arguable that they are wrong to be brought up or thought about in general. 

I just want Mason back.