I tried going back to sleep but... that didn't happen. So I lied in bed for an hour before realizing I wasn't sleeping anytime soon.
I got up, fiddle-farted around, took a walk, called my aunt, then did some homework. My Italian teacher didn't assign MORE homework thank Jesus... I can't pass these 6 assignments because I'm confused on how to tell time in Italian! That makes my mind boggled.
The math was fairly easy. Tough at parts but I made it through an exercise! Another exercise down, however many to go.
I wrote Mason more letters this afternoon. I will send them tomorrow morning prior to going to school. The mailman picks up the mail at 10 AM and I leave to drop it off at 9ish AM. PERFECT TIMING!!! :)
I found the dates on the letters Mason sent me. He WAS a smarty-pants and did as he knew I would like!! His first letters were from Sept/25 then the last one was from Sept/26. Damn, did they delay!!! Hopefully the next batch won't be so delayed!! I enjoy this letter writing :D
But some people would be like, "PFFT... This is SOOOOO 1700's..."
I DON'T CARE!!!!!! It's cool!
I talked to Chris last night. I haven't heard from him in over a week until last night. I was worried sick but thought Lily (Mason's sissy) was down there so I didn't bother him. Nonetheless, she's down there TODAY and what happened for that past week was Grandma Deb Deb and Chris had to deal with some medical issues when all of a sudden, they were able to get Chris' new BED!! He told me about it last night and I freaked out, stating, "I was going to go get a job and set aside money FOR your new bed! But you guys beat me to it!"
For those who don't know, Chris is paralyzed due to an accident many years ago. He's bed ridden right now. Hopefully he'll be able to bring his strength back and get into his wheelchair once again :)
It was nice to talk with him. My anxiety was getting worse in not knowing what was going on so I'm glad I was able to call. On Friday, we'll most likely call again and maybe Skype over the weekend. Also on Friday I'm hanging out with a friend who I haven't seen in a long time too! I'm pretty sure she won't do what Will did to me because SHE is the one who announced the fact of wanting to hang out with me.
We'll have fun. I know it.
Last night, I had another dream about my teacher friend, Daniel. Out of the blue they are coming back again! Could be the reason why I had crappy sleep... I felt kinda disappointed the whole day and empty. I truly do miss him. I know some people are wishing I'd just forget about him already yet how can I if I keep having dreams about him? And it's not like I can automatically STOP thinking about him. Having no closure is always in the back of my brain, waiting to be completed so I won't have to worry about it anymore.
In the dream, we were friends again of course. I usually follow him around if he's walking somewhere. I don't remember all of it but I do remember the concept. He was silly, handsome; he was the Daniel I once knew.
At the end of the dream, we came together and stood in front of each other to say our goodbyes. I don't know where I was going or where HE was going but I think he had to go somewhere. After letting each other know it was time to go, we hugged. It was the most meaningful hug I have gotten from him in a long time in my dreams. We never hugged in real life... However, this hug was as if it was going to be the last time we saw each other. It was interesting: I placed a gentle hand on the back of his head in a sense of protectiveness and I could feel his hair between my fingers. It was SO realistic! I don't understand why my brain had me remember that touch sensory yet it did anyway.
The dream dispersed after the hug.
Like I said, we never hugged before in reality. I hugged HIM but that was at the end of 8th grade. I snuck up on him, stood beside him; we chatted for a minute until I spontaneously wrapped my arms around him! He chuckled, didn't really hug me back or even touch me from the shock, before saying goodbye to me as I walked up the walkway and off campus.
I guess the real reason why we hug so much in my dreams is because 1) I LOVE hugs and they mean a tremendous amount of importance to me and 2) Because I miss him and if I see him soon, the first thing I'd do is probably hug him.
I still care about him... And I honestly don't care what others have to say about me needing to forget about him and let myself know he's a bad guy. I'm just the type of person who holds on to people that I believed were dear to me in my life and when they go; I want to try and find a way to keep in touch. Unless it's someone like my friend who I had a crush on and he totally ignored me... If they intentionally do something to ME, then I won't want to be around them. Yet Daniel didn't, I don't think, do it intentionally to hurt ME. He did it because he thought he could get away with it. He's obviously sick... And because I've always believed as myself a guardian angel to those I love and adore, I don't want to leave him out there all alone in the world, possibly asking for help.
When Mason comes home, we'll try and see if we could contact him; wherever he is.
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