It's raining over here in Washington. My parents built me a fire in the fireplace before they left to go meet up with a friend and help them fix their car. I feel just like how the weather is; dreary. I miss Mason like no other. My health seems to be getting worse as the days go by... specifically speaking for my psoriasis. I hate my scaly, dry scalp! I've had this problem since I was BORN. I'm glad I scheduled an appointment with my skin doctor soon because I'm getting tired of it. It's just bringing me down; it's annoying as Hell.
I think stress induces it. I scratch it a Hell of a lot more when I'm either nervous, stressed, angry... It's no bueno. Maybe I'll be put on some pills? If I am, I better check with mom first... She hates me on meds. I don't particularly enjoy being on them either; especially pills that are big and you cannot chew.
But, I'll pretty much do anything to take care of this skin issue. Anything.
Mason wrote me another letter! I got it yesterday. This time, he finally got to say what's been going on. But prior to him telling me what's up, he told me that he shouldn't even be WRITING this letter at the time being!!
Oh May May <3 How much I adore you for being daring JUST to send me a letter.
He let me know that he was about to get his TEETH pulled (I don't know why!) and that boot camp really sucks balls. However, he isn't getting yelled at that much and not getting IT'd that much either which is a good thing. So he's doing well!
Nevertheless, he hopes that I still love him.
I knew some day he'd write that in one of his letters...
He informed me that our letters are coming in veeeery sloooowly... He might not have ANYTHING from me yet. There was no date on this letter so... I don't know how old or new it is. But I am POSITIVE that once he starts getting my letters, he'll realize he has nothing to worry about.
Last night I wrote him a letter talking about how I hope they dosed him pretty heavily with numbing stuff and I teased over the fact that I didn't want him to look like a Hillbilly coming home! Then I got super serious and expressed to him about his doubts of me not loving him anymore. I said to him that I was sorry for all the crap I caused and all the bickering and fighting we had during our past. I said to him that I can be a better girlfriend and I WILL be a better girlfriend. I continued telling him that I will forever love him and that he has nothing to worry about.
If only he could read these blog posts... he'd never have to think like that again.
Today is a very calm day. I still have math to do but... I don't want to do it of course. I almost just want to sit here and mope. I have a lot of crud zingin' through my head; don't know how to get rid of it. Probably doing some math problems will help.
-sigh- I just want Mason home... Or at least see his face. Yes, I have pictures but I want to know what he looks like NOW. It has been almost a MONTH. People can change in a month! Shoot, I'm getting a super short haircut soon, this upcoming Wednesday; that's something extremely different! I've never had a really short haircut before since my hair is naturally curly! Yet I'll get it permanently straightened, IF Rick (me and my mom's hairdresser) thinks it is necessary. We'll see!
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