First of all, I got up feeling like I ran a gazillion marathons for those 11 hours of "sleep".
Second of all, I had to do a math quiz and it took me an HOUR AND A HALF just for 25 questions... I hate fractions...
Third of all, because I took so damn long with my math (let me remind you; we can't use calculators in that class!), I was late for my Italian test! I only had 30 minutes to finish it. It was easy/I didn't study so I didn't know most of the answers all the way... and I got it done before class ended.
I am going in on Wednesday to do part of the test with my Italian teacher since it was a listening-and-writing-down-the-answers one. I will have to miss my math class a bit because she wanted me to come in around 10:30.
Scheiße...
My depression is ruining me... I blame my unstoppable dreaming and lack of sleep as well. I was dizzy and light headed all day. Until I got some food in me. That made me feel a little more chipper and less befuddled. Nevertheless, I feel like a carcass deteriorating from the inside out. These dreams of Mason and Daniel aren't helping even though my brain thinks they are. I just want BOTH of them BACK. And because of this, my brain longs for them and produces them in my dreams so I won't feel lonely anymore. Or... at least during the time I'm dreaming.
I had a dream about Robert Downey Jr. last night.
Either it was him, or Daniel. I'm really not sure.
Yet I think it was Robert because, for 1) I watched a movie yesterday that had Robert Downey Jr. in it and 2) because we were talking about Daniel. I was asking Robert if he knew where Daniel was. Of course, he didn't know. We hung out together a lot in the dream. I believe I explained to him my reason why I wanted to be with him and why I wondered where this Daniel guy was. He understood, surprisingly, and we became great friends.
No dreams about Mason.
I don't remember the last time I dreamt about my love...
I guess I'll look back on some of my previous posts and figure out when, eh? That's the easiest way.
I hope next week I'll get some letters. Even just one will bring me some happiness.
I'll be starting my book soon. Maybe that'll keep my mind off of how sad I am.
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