I had a lovely day today with Lily and the family! It was nice to see a fellow ginger having some fun with folks and friends. It's funny; I knew some of her friends because WE knew EACH OTHER during middle school and high school. Been a while since we actually interacted with one another.
Besides that, today was laid back and RAINY. My goodness, so much rain in such little time. I can hardly take walks nowadays because I'll be drenched by the time I exit out of my front door! Ah well. A bit of rain doesn't hurt...
However, IT'S BEEN A LOT!
Nah, just kiddin'. :) I like rain! It's calming. Well, when I'm in a good mood, it's calming. But lately it kind of makes me sad :( I wonder if it's raining at all in San Diego? I've never been to San Diego but I have been to Cali multiple times. Can't believe I didn't see San D.! That's one of the hot spots for traveling, right? Man, I'm lame then. ;(
Maybe when I go see Mason we could tour around before heading straight home; more or less if he DOES get to go straight home. I know on the 13th (family day) he will barely be able to see me. I think we only get an hour together or something around that. It sucks! We're going to be completely soaked with snot and tears and soon, they'd have to pull us away. Gah... Not THAT again. No more pulling away!!!
He keeps writing how badly he wants to see me - even if it's just the slightest second. I'm guessing the pictures aren't satisfying enough. And I totally understand! We don't want PICTURES! We want the actual THING! Each other! Holding one another and being able to look into each other's eyes!!
Do you people know how ALLURING Mason's eyes are?? My WORD they send you in to some sort of TRANCE-LIKE state! I miss staring into them. We don't even have to talk to one another. We express our love and care through our body language or our touches and kisses and smiles and pokes and laughter, etc. It's wonderful. And I think when couples are able to do that, where they don't have to say anything to each other but they KNOW what they're "saying", it's a beautiful thing. It's admirable. People who see innocent love like ours believe it is something to cherish. And we do cherish it. We cherish every MILLIsecond of it. I miss those moments... Those moments where we gaze at each other without one another noticing or blush over each other's attractiveness even when we try to hide it... So many moments... and it feels like it all happened yesterday.
When our relationship was new, we were a bunch of corny suckers. We'd send one another terribly long texts, telling each other how much we love one another and how we're so grateful we're together. I remember this one night, I was sitting in my glorious comfy purple chair (this was... maybe... a month into our relationship), texting Mason. He was in Oregon visiting the family. All of a sudden, I got a corny kick:
Me: Hey Mason? Are you able to go outside and see the stars?
Him: I could... Why do you ask honey?
Me: If I told you to count every single star that you could see, you'd probably think that there were so many, it would take days to count them all, right? I mean... Even if you could, you still would miss some because not every single star can be seen by the naked eye, you know?
Him: Of course honey :3...
Me: Honey... Our love is just like the stars. It's infinite. And when people see us, they think, "God, they're in love." but... they will never know. It's just like how people will never know how many stars there are in the sky or in space. It's so much, it's crazy and overwhelming but beautiful. That's our love honey. :) That's our love.
Ever since then, we hold that saying in our hearts. "Our love is like the stars."
I used to save our texts ALL the time! Whenever they'd make me laugh or were incredibly sweet, etc., I'd save them in my photo album. It's fun to read them over. I forgot most of them, but when I'd read them, I'd remember the exact moment we were typing those silly texts to one another. Yet as the months would pass on by, getting closer to Mason's departure, hardly anything was cute and obnoxious and random and hilarious. I mean, don't get me WRONG, we had our wacky moments! Those shall NEVER DIE! But... I tell you what... a dramatic change did come... And Mason didn't like it. I didn't like it either. I was having bizarre mood swings, depression; almost like I was going through a streak of bipolar. I hated it! WE hated it! But Mason loves me so much, he has no mind set of leaving me.
When our relationship would get to a point where we'd think it was going to end, Mason would solemnly swear that he isn't like the other guys and will never leave me over something as balmy as a few bickering arguments. He said, "If I were like the other guys, I would have left you a LONG time ago." At first, it sounds harsh. What he meant by that is; most guys wouldn't take the time and effort to go with me through my sensitive life. They'd brush it off of their shoulder and simply tell me, "It's alright babe. Stuff happens. Just be happy!" and that would be it. Yet Mason actually ADORES me. He sticks around because he respects who I am. He LOVES me and in some people's eyes, he's an IDIOT because they think I'm too over-dramatic for him or too bossy, etc.
In all honesty, yea, I am kind of a dramatic gal. Yet I live in a dramatic LIFE that has torn me to BITS and I'd have to be the ONLY one who'd piece myself together again. My other boyfriends rarely helped. They'd just give me a few kisses, a cuddle, and some heart-warming words and they'd let me be on my way!
You know what Mason does?
He treats me like a man should and stays by my side. Ups and downs are what happen in a relationship. We make a mistake and we learn through our arguments or stern talks. But all in all we love each other. We know this deep down inside ourselves and once that argument or upsetting moment is done, we forgive one another, love one another, and we'd feel all better.
I can't explain how special our relationship is or how amazing Mason is. Words aren't enough. You have to meet him and know his ways and his life before you can truthfully say, "This guy is a prize. Show him off well."
And I do.
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