C'mon...
That's absolutely redonkulous...
Why did I dream about Felix? Maybe because I haven't watched his videos in a while and my brain keeps thinking, "Oh, I should watch one of PewDiePie's videos today to cheer me up." and I wouldn't.
In the dream, we were OBVIOUSLY together... But I knew he was still with his girlfriend. Yet... I was cool with that... because we were together...
Seriously, WTF?
I love Felix and all (and I think he's pretty handsome too) ... BUT REALLY, BRAIN??? I am HALF as beautiful as his girlfriend. She is a peach. I even love her and I don't watch her videos. She's just so damn cute! And her and Felix are like... the perfect couple. I adore them being a couple. They are two peas in a pod. It's great.
However, my brain decided to be a jackass and develop a dream about me and him all up on each other.
Nice, brain. Nice.
Today was cool. During my commute to school I saw an orange Xterra like the one we have. I thought it was my mom at first but I reminded myself that my mother never gets out these days; only when her and my dad are out running and doing marathons. She works from home and travels... No me gusta.
Math was alright and so was Italian. Learned some more stuff and finished another exercise. Afterwards, I got home and went straight on the computer to watch Felix be his nutty self (http://www.youtube.com/user/PewDiePie) then 3 o'clock rolled around and I decided it was time to walk to our nearest park and find my friend, Melissa.
As I got to the corner of taking a right and being on the grounds of the park, I saw my friend Melissa walking to the left of me. I was about to sneak up on her yet she saw me. Perfect timing, I'll say! And I wasn't completely sure WHERE we were meeting up!
So, we walked together to the park grounds and immediately started talking. Melissa seemed down at first but she did mention to me on Facebook that she is going through something similar. I asked about it and she announced that HER hubby will be leaving in five days for 10 months. He's not in the military; he's working with a peace core to help rebuild buildings after catastrophes and such like that. Nonetheless, once those 10 months are up, they'll be back together like nothing ever happened. AND... they have communication (texting, Skyping, etc.). Not saying it's any less harder to deal with; just stating that... you know... I wish it were the same with me and Mason. But he'll be home for only 10 days before leaving again for 4 flippin' years...
At least I have someone to talk to who is going through, pretty much, the same situation as me. We stayed at the park for... a couple of hours. We chit-chat through the whole visit. We had so much to say. I was happy to see her.
You know what her nickname is? It sounds like "May May" but it's spelled, "Mei Mei". So now we're being silly gooses and saying she's my substitute "Mei Mei" while my ACTUAL May May is off at boot camp. I thought that was really cute <3
She's writing a blog too yet hers is private so I won't be sharing the link. She's going to be doing what I'm doing however her days will be counting down.
We might hang out next week :) That would be wonderful.
-sigh- ... Nevertheless, talking about other people's relationships get me depressed because once I'm alone, I feel out of whack. Tomorrow will be the 20th day; 50 days left.
My God... That's half of 100... SO... MANY... DAYS.
I hope I won't feel this lonely when Mason's on his main base. We'll have much more communication but I wonder if I'll feel even worse? I hate conversing with him over electronics!!! Instead, I want to be WITH HIM... in real life!
I can't stop daydreaming about us... Especially about the graduation.
I also can't stop daydream about me and Daniel, to be honest.
I am being tortured by my own thoughts... I want to daydream them, yet I don't. Because I don't want them to JUST be in my head. I want them to be right in front of me; happening.
You know what I love the most about Melissa?
Her positivity and compassion for me.
Instead of saying, "Hopefully he still loves you." or "Hopefully he won't be a dick when he comes back." she says, "He's thinking about you every day and every night." and "When he comes home, he'll appreciate you MORE than he has before."
It's so positive to me! And it lifts my spirits for the future to come.
Thanks Melissa for always being there for me!!! :D
Oh, and, here's a little something for Chris... I drew this picture on my mom's iPad using the app Sketchbook PRO. Remember when I was talking about that, Chris? Well, here's my first actual sketch on it!! (And no, it's not me and Mason. Haha)
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