At least I had some fun! At school, not so much because... I had to learn and stuff. However, when I got home, an hour later Melissa came over and we goofed off. First, we played Mario Cart on the Wii. My God we were two kids in a candy store... We played online and since we haven't played the game in for-flippin'-ever, we SUCKED!!! It was HILARIOUS!!! I'm glad the Wii doesn't have chatting options or people would have been shouting out and calling us a bunch of noobs. We were laughing hysterically, yelling and screeching over our mistakes and people choosing Rainbow Road; it was a blast.
Next, we played LittleBIGPlanet 2 on my PS3. A lot of the levels we played were horrendous... Some were cute, others were pointless. We only stayed on there for a good 25 minutes. Nobody is making creative levels these days!!! They either are copying other people's lame levels or trying to bring somebody down or... H4H (heart for heart) - it's all ridiculous! I hate it. I wish LBP was like what it used to be a couple years ago; fresh, entertaining and with no drama whatsoever. Nonetheless, if you don't have crap over the internet, I guess TO SOME it wouldn't be the internet at all.
Afterwards, we went in the front, built a fire, ate food and watched TV. I'm starting to like the channel GSN!! They play all of the old game shows that are redone nowadays! It's fun! I love Family Feud. I have that game on the Xbox and on my iPhone. It is LEGIT. Steve Harvey is the latest game show host. He is a riot. I adore him. He is too goddamn funny. <3 Best. Game show host. Ever.
I don't know which is better; playing the game and laughing obnoxiously over the answers, or watching the show and laughing obnoxiously to the answers coming out of the peoples mouths. Sometimes, they are so stupid, you wonder, "And how did you believe you and your family would be winning the $20,000?" I mean, that's what makes Steve Harvey one of the best game show hosts for that show because he can easily make fun of it if he wants to!
Around 7, Melissa had to go. It was nice seeing her again. We talked about our boyfriends being away and how everything was doing and how we are keeping ourselves occupied so we aren't haunted by our hubbies absences... Man... After this post, I will be reading her posts and seeing how her days are going. She hasn't talked to her boyfriend or heard from her boyfriend in over a week. She keeps texting him and stuff but he doesn't reply... Damn. And I thought the whole situation with the letters was gruesome... Well, if they aren't responding, that's even WORSE!
Melissa, we'll get there. At least your man will be safe at home after these 10 months. <3
I haven't talked to Chris or grandma Deb Deb in a long time :( I just now texted Chris but a while ago I gave him another text and he hasn't answered back! I hope everything is alright. Lily says it is. Yet I'd still like to chat with them :)
No mail from Mason.
Ah well. I'm sure he is kicking butt and beating everybody like a boss.
Tomorrow will be the 50th day. And this time, I'm sure of it because I counted, haha. Hopefully I can make it without a doubt. But lately, I've been feeling a little hopeless.
DON'T WORRY! I'M NOT THINKING OF SUICIDE!
What I meant by "making it" is getting through this long era without going on medication or, more or less, become out-of-control depressed.
Some days I wonder if I'll all of a sudden get so sad that I'll end the relationship. I don't want to do that. I don't EVER want to get to that point. Shoot, me and his family are so closely bonded already, I call them MY family. They are MY family, too. Mason is a part of MY family, ya know?
Sometimes I lie in my bed and just think. I think, and think, aaaaand think. Most of the time it's about Mason. Other times, it's about questioning myself on whether or not I can live like this; dealing with my boyfriend, as a Marine, off doing military things. I hate war, I dislike war affiliated stuff, I am uncomfortable with weaponry... yet Mason loves all of that sort of stuff! And I'd bitch at him because of it! Why? I don't know... I guess because I didn't want him to get himself into something that he can't get out of... Or, getting himself terribly hurt where he is unable to mobilize himself on his own or something... You know? I'm such a protective person, it gets on people's nerves. People think I'm over-dramatic. Well you know why? It's because I care... A LOT. End of story.
I don't want Mason to get hurt, I don't want myself to get hurt and I don't want others to get hurt. Whether that is mentally or physically or both, I don't care. I just don't want anyone getting hurt one way or the other. That's it! I'm complicated like that. I'm sensitive, a bit over-dramatic, but lovable. We all have our pros and cons.
Aaaaaaaand that's my lecture of the day!!! Obviously, I had to get THAT off of my chest, huh?
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