Day 20 of Florida

I found SNL on Netflix. I just finished watching Episode... uhh... Well, I do know I'm still on Season 1. I forgot they started that show in the 70s and STILL CONTINUING! I love SNL. Finally... I have something to do in my free time.

If you are wondering what happened with my story, I'm sort of slacking because of the finals and the projects. Sheesh, I have to act tomorrow in ITAL and on Wednesday, I have to present my individual presentation as well as turn in my ENGL portfolio.

I miss writing my story, though - don't get me wrong. But being stressed and depressed can kill EVERYTHING. Shoot, I'm even jealous over my boyfriend having a funner time in the Marines than I am in the civilized world.

Now, I'm beating myself up for being jealous over my one true love... Is it really wrong??? Is it wrong if I'm jealous over the people I care for? It doesn't mean I love them any less!! It's just because I'm unhappy with my life and this depression can't let me go through, with what I want, to keep me stable; to have me happy.

I know for the people who are reading this and don't have depression, they aren't totally understanding my disadvantage. Even Mason doesn't understand. He'll say he does, but he truly doesn't.

I won't go on like this anymore... I shouldn't... It brings down my viewers.

My day went well. My ITAL group had a scare when we only noticed half of the skit was written out on our Google DOC. The restaurant owner dude went off to a cabin he rented with a friend. He wasn't here today, in class, so we didn't know what to do. We emailed him a few times; that was all we could do. Thankfully, just a couple hours ago, the guy typed up the rest of the script and I easily copy and pasted it into a Word Document for printing tomorrow morning. We'll be using note-cards... We can't memorize all of it... It'll deduct points yet we don't care.

ENGL was a bother and MATH was boring.

I have a long test in MATH tomorrow. I'm also going to the doctor for a check-up.

Wish me luck on tomorrow for... all that I have listed! Ta-ta!

Methane Bubbles, Alaska

 

The first clear ice of fall on an Alaskan lake captures methane that all summer long has bubbled from the bottom mud. In spring it will be released into the air. As permafrost melts, new lakes are forming all around the Arctic.