Mason and I

Mason and I

Saturday, March 30, 2013

Day 39 of Florida

Shout out to Jenni who became my first Follower today!!

WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN, JENNI?! 7 MONTHS LATER!! SHEESH!!

;)

I'm only joking. <3

If you haven't read my previous posts, Jenni, I'm a real goober. I can either get terribly sarcastic, or, terribly depressing. I'm a bit impulsive. I hope you don't mind that at all!

Now, on with my day...

I guess I'll start with the fact that I did NOTHING today. I did take a peaceful walk this afternoon. In the evening time, mom and I went to Costco for snack shopping.

However... each time we go to Costco... we AT LEAST have to spend $500... At least... Just... only $500... To the minimum...

You get my point.

But, as I was saying... I have come to a conclusion why I don't deal with civilization...

Because people are INCREDIBLY rude!!

Mom and I were trying to take a left into an isle. Of course, there was a PARADE of people in the way since Costco is always packed. Behind us, folks waited patiently for us to go on...

Or, so we THOUGHT.

A lady muttered, "Finally, these dumb people taking a left MOVED" after we made our way passed the crowd.

At first, I didn't quite comprehend the last bit of what she mumbled. I didn't think she was talking about US! Why would she be??? Until the woman walked away and we were down the isle, mom said, "Oh my God, lady. Don't even start with me right now." I asked what was wrong. Mom told me what the lady had scoffed.

I immediately got furious...

My weakening heart can't take much these days. Anything negative puts a strain on it.

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After being pissed off, I rapidly became sorrowful. I wanted to go home, hide under my blankets, and sulk over how ruthless the world is. I don't socialize with the "outside world." I feel like it doesn't accept me. Why do you think I am on internet chat sites, chatting it up with strangers??? Because they can't judge me so easily... I feel safe over the web. If someone angers me, I can simply make them disappear. If I get sad, I have somebody to vent to without paying $900. I can also relate to people; they like chat sites, SO DO I! They like to dress their avatar up like an animal, SAME HERE! But in real life... I'm sort of a closed book.

Anyway... Mason and I are fine. Last night, we watched Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind while hanging out on IMVU together. It was frustration to try and sync up our stream. Luckily, we had no lagging difficulties. Went smoothly. He said it was a good movie! I'm glad. Our movie tastes are diverse. I feel highly accomplished when he likes something that I like.

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-Sigh- This whole being-a-Marine-girlfriend thing is a heavy weight on my shoulders... On my heart, even. Jenni, I'm sure you can agree... you almost want to give up. You can't take it any longer. But something still strives - pushes you further - keeps telling you to put your foot in front of the other. Each time things get rough, I remember the time when my grandpa and dad made fun of the women who are married or dating a Marine... They chuckled as if the duty wasn't as strenuous as being an actual soldier, fighting for our country. I say the duty of being a girlfriend or wife with an American soldier, no matter what branch it may be, is just as honorable and perplexing as being an American soldier. We're fighting to survive, just like them. They want to be home as much as we want them to be home. We love them as much as they love us.

People might think being with a soldier is the coolest thing. I won't disagree with them... But being a soldier's partner is no walk in the park.

Mammoth Tusk Hunter, Siberia
Siberian hunter Slava Dolbaev uses a spear to dig out a corkscrewed mammoth tusk from a coastal ice cliff. Prying loose a single tusk can take hours, even days. Tusk hunters often leave colored beads or silver jewelry as offerings to local spirits.

2 comments:

  1. I am so glad to have found you! Sorry it took me 7 months....LOL! I had to meet Cody first! ;)

    We can do this. We're strong and smart enough to find ourselves an outlet for therapy (blogs!). I'm so glad to know that I'm not alone in feeling sometimes like it's too much weight to bear. For me, the moments are fleeting and transient, but so overwhelming. They hit me like a ton of rocks, and I just feel completely broken. Just as quickly, though, I remember that I love him and that if I don't persevere, we'll never have a life together. You're soo right, "...being a soldier's partner is no walk in the park," but it's so worth the wait! :)

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  2. Hey Jenni :)

    I would be sending this message to you via ACTUAL MESSAGE but... I've never done that before (even after a couple years of having a Blogger...) so I'm super confused on how it works... COMMMENT IT IS!

    About IMVU, I can easily teach you the "rules and regulations" of that chat site IF you and your boyfriend are really thinking about joining it. I've had my account now for... almost 5 years? Long time, I know. The place is my virtual crack. ;)

    My username is ThePYT. When you guys get hooked up with the site, PLEASE tell me your guys' usernames!! Then I'll add you both!! And help you guys out!

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