I'm highly OCD.
I don't know if I'll get to the memories today since I had a long day, however, I AM SORRY!!!! I guess I was too super pumped about seeing my old daycare friends that I didn't even want to BLOG. I wanted to celebrate!!! Nonetheless, I made a promise to myself to blog EVERY DAY until Mason is home. I have thought about continuing while he's at his main base for 4 years but... that's a lot of blogging...
Today was excellent nevertheless!! And because my homework isn't due until the 5th of October, I'm not hurrying this post. It is late though and I am ultra sleepy so... I might have to hurry because I don't want to pass out...
Anyway, school was fun. Talked to Marissa a bunch of course and learned new stuff in Italian. I went home, did some homework from Italian, then, when there was a knock on my door, I gestured in my friend Tay Tay.
She still looks the same and that's what I LOVE about her! We never age!! Muahaha.
We stayed at my house for a couple minutes to chat before we went off to Lincoln Park. The WHOLE stinkin' day we were blabbering on and on about EVERYTHING. It was SWEET!!! I and Taylor have that connection with one another where, no matter what we talk about, we will talk about it for as long as we possibly can. Suddenly, we'd be on the next subject! And it would go on and on... It's wondrous :D
We hardly sat down the entire day. We walked around, up and down, into the park and out on the beach. We had so much to say, that I think that was giving us all of the energy! We were so happy to see each other and catch up on what was missed between us!
As we adventured, we would randomly stop and take lovely photo ops because today... was gorgeous. I love being at Lincoln Park when it is GORGEOUS outside!! And since Tay Tay reads my blogs, she goes, "It's Payton outside!" That put a smile on my face. :)
Speaking of Mason's phrases, she told me that Mason used to talk about me aaaall the tiiime. Like, I believe it was during the time of our dates to Lincoln Park and he was chatting with Taylor about how much he LOVED me and how he hopes that I feel the same way back. Of course, being Tay Tay, she loves cute things. So she was as bubbly as could be while talking about how adorable Mason was when he talked about me. I bet I was blushing. I enjoy hearing stories about Mason conversing on how he loves me and how he feels. Makes my heart flutter. <3
We stayed at Lincoln Park for... I would say... an hour or two. I showed Taylor the places that me and Mason would hang out at. It was great fun! I missed it there... I wasn't sad. Only when I'd talk about me and Mason. I'd be giddy! But when I'd realize he's not here, I'd get kind of down.
The only thing that matters though, is us having a good time. If I'm smiling, then everyone's smiling. Unless they hate me. It just pisses my enemies off when I ignore them and enjoy life without their negativity.
So... like I said... we talked a whole lot, took a bunch of pictures, laughed and relished at the beautiful day at a beautiful park.
We walked home, even though my folks were down there running (they took a car of course), and Taylor walked half way to my house until giving me a secure hug and watching me cross the street so I wouldn't get hit by a car.
You know what's awesome about Taylor and Mason? They HATE me walking on the side of the sidewalk where cars are ZOOMING by. They always position me on the farther side of the sidewalk. It's nice that they like it when I'm safe :)
Thank you <3 I appreciate your concerns!
Okay... I think I can make it another 20-30 minutes... So! Let's continue those memories, huh? :D
After he spilled the beans over him fancying me, I wanted to scream out, "I love you, too!!" and smooch him on the lips!! However, life isn't a movie... You can't do retakes... So if I did something that I regret, well, I can't truly take it back.
My heart wanted to say it SO BADLY. But my brain ceased the explosion and I replied back with an, "Oh!" I wasn't too surprised but at the same time, I was! I was exhilarated that someone liked me!! More or less, LOVED me.
I added, "I... kinda guessed! But umm..." I didn't know what to say. I forgot all what I said but I know it wasn't something he wanted to hear... I believe I told him how grateful I was about him loving me yet I only liked him as a friend. He seemed a bit disappointed yet, like Mason, understood. Afterwards, we walked home. He wrapped an arm around my shoulders and placed his hand on my right shoulder. I wrapped my arm around his waist and as we walked home, I'd snuggle him. Then, I decided to do something DARING. And loving! But at the time, I felt like it was something TOTALLY hardcore and possibly dangerous... Yet I DID IT!
With my right hand, I reached up and took a hold of his fingers that gripped my shoulder. While we kept walking and him noticing my touch, he wiggled his fingers forward as I wiggled my fingers back and soon enough, we were holding on to each other's hands. For almost the whole way, we stayed like that. It... was... adorable.
Our third date was on his 17th birthday. I of course wanted to see him! We decided to celebrate at, none other than, Lincoln Park. We strolled from the park to the beach through the trails and through the sand. As we did, I'd hold on to his wallet chain. Well... that sly devil figured enough was enough and slipped his hand in between the chain and my hand and laced his fingers with mine. I was totally stunned! But once I realized what he had done, I became lovable and snuggled him while holding his hand back and continuing our walk.
There was a baseball game happening at one of the fields. We stopped, sat under a hefty tree, and watched the teams play ball. I cuddled Mason and he cuddled back. Oh... how much I wanted to peck him on the cheek! He said he wanted to do something similar. But we didn't! Too shy. Didn't know what would happen, either! Whether I'd slap him or kiss him back or he'd freak out or kiss me back! So we left it alone.
When it was time to go home, we went through this trail that would lead us up to the sidewalk. I had a warm feeling rise up inside me as we traveled through. I wanted to kiss him. I wanted to tell him how I really felt. I told my mind to shut the Hell up and let my feelings flow.
While we leisurely walked along, our conversation stopped. My mind was BUZZING about all the different ways I could let him know that I actually, for a fact, love him back! Finally, an old school one popped in my head. I've always wanted to do this to a guy I liked and wanted to be with...
I stated, "Hey, Mason? Do you like magic? I know magic." He stops and turns to me. I stop on this log and he says, "Yea, I like magic." "Do you want to see a magic trick?" I asked. He nods and smirks. I go, "Okay! Close your eyes..." He does. I position him in front of me and mumble out, "You gotta stand in front of me..." The entire time, he had a hint of a grin on his lips. I didn't want that! So I'd tell him, "Relax! Don't smile. Be serious." He chuckles and hides the smile. After a couple of seconds, I say, "Here we go..." and I leaned over and kissed him!! His first kiss by the girl he cherishes! When the kiss was over, his eyes were sparkling, his smile was wide and cute, and I had the same expression. I hugged him and I whisper, "Oh Mason; your first girlfriend!!" He was giggling and we hugged for at least a minute. We were extremely happy. More than happy! Over-joyed.
As we walked out of the trail, I stopped in my tracks and said, "You know... can I kiss you again? I didn't really like that kiss. I wanted it to be better!"
I'm picky... I like things perfect... Not that I regret the very first kiss! Yet I had hoped it would have been as I planned.
So anyway, like Mason, he said the first kiss was perfect yet gave me another one. It was a little strange kissing my best friend at the time. However, I knew deep down inside, he was the one for me.
When we got to my house, we hid behind the Japanese Maple and hugged for a while. We then parted, kissed, and hugged again with him whispering, "I love you." and me whispering back, "I love you, too." We went our separate ways and once we did, I felt like my life was complete.
Aaaaand, THE END!!! ... Just kidding, I'll add a bit more the next time I REMEMBER. :P I do need my sleep, though... I am terribly exhausted. It's a good thing! But damn... Hopefully I'll get a good nights rest.
Oh!! Before I hurry off, I had two dreams about Mason this week! Two nights ago, I had a dream of us talking about World of Warcraft and how awesome their commercials are. Then last night I had a dream about us and other people trying to defeat an old Chinese emperor that wanted to KILL US by setting traps throughout our survival courses. I'd be worried sick for Mason...
Thankfully my dreams make him look like himself instead of somebody else and saying it's him. I hate when my dreams do that... But I guess my brain has enough memory to produce him just as the way he is in my dreams without myself feeling disappointed.
I do miss him though. Me and Taylor were laughing over the fact of Mason possibly being ripped when he comes home!! I don't know if he'd be ripped, but most likely VERY fit.
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